place in this world

As the days passed, I began to fall in love with ophthalmology all over again. I can't think why I ever let go of it and now I am contemplating the most difficult path of all - to try and do ophthalmology in Singapore but to pass my MRCP before then. I don't know if I will be successful but right now, I am just happy that after speaking to someone in the organisation I hope to work in in the future, that I don't actually have to give up ophthalmology. That came as a huge surprise to me, but a good one nonetheless.

Yesterday was my last day of work here and it was sad but also it was nice to get thank you cards and flowers from my colleagues. I have loved being here so much and I hate leaving this part of me behind. I wish Dundee were nearer so I could come visit more often.

In 3 weeks' time, I will be back in Singapore and embarking on my new journey, wherever that may lead. But trying to chase all these dreams within me is actually so difficult, the oodles of exams to sit, courses to attend, articles to write. I am just afraid to lose the me that I want to become.

Lord, help me to find my place in this world.

The wind is moving

But I am standing still

A life of pages

Waiting to be filled

A heart that's hopeful

A head that's full of dreams

But this becoming is harder than it seems

Feels like

I'm looking for a reason

Roaming through the night

To find my place in this world

My place in this world

Not a lot to lean on

I need your light to help me find

My place in this world

My place in this world

If there are millions

Down on their knees

Among the many

Can you still hear me

Hear me asking

Where do I belong

Is there a vision

That I can call my own

Show me

I'm looking for a reason

Roaming through the night to find

My place in this world

My place in this world

Not a lot to lean on

I need your light to help me find

My place in this world

My place in this world

-Place in this World, Avalon