destined

Things have been moving so quickly in the past few weeks or even days, but then it feels like my life is just beginning again. Dundee has been the only life I've known for the last 7 years that I've been so loathe to give it up. The other day I looked at my prayer requests for this year and one of them was for God to give me direction in the specialty I should do and where to do it. And at the end of the day, what I do or where I do it doesn't really matter as long as I go where God is or sends me.

Being here in Dundee gave me the opportunities to pursue this missionary life, one I would never have known if I had studied in Singapore. But now it's part in my life is over and I have to go back. I am so thankful that God helped me to pass my MRCP the first time but I knew that things would be set in motion the moment I did. My heart seems so full of fear and trepidation, the thought of packing up, moving home, rebuilding a life, starting from scratch in a new hospital. It's not the life I would have chosen but there are bigger reasons. My heart has also never been so excited. This will be my first time as proper missionary doctor and 2011 will be the biggest year for me. Two months in the Philippines, China, Mongolia and whatever God has in store for me. I am sad that I'm giving up my ophthalmology dream but it's no comparison.

Finally, it feels like I'm beginning to fulfil the destiny that God has mapped out for me.

"I have questions

You have answers

I have wounds

You heal with love

I am weak and you are mighty

Hungry and you fill me up

This was meant to be

When you created me.

I was destined to love you

I was bound to adore you

Purposed to need you

Certain to want you

Designed to pursue you with praise

I was destined to love you

You define me with your greatness

I am shaked by mercy's hand

It's your word that gives me meaning

Yours forever, great I am

How can joy be known

It's in you alone"

- Destined, Avalon