The thought of going back to Singapore has never really crossed my mind. All along, I had planned to finish my training here so that I could finally walk down the path of a missionary. That was, until I met a friend who was going back home and began persuading me to go. I've always been awfully stubborn, but 7 years ago, God made me a huge leap of faith. I made a decision that changed my life in an awesome way but also sent me down a road full of bumps, obstacles and questions. Too often were the nights when I would struggle with God for an answer. Eventually, I felt that God had put this nagging feeling in my heart for a reason and I took a chance and felt this amazing peace in my heart that was so powerful. But the years that followed after were difficult and there were times when I questioned if I'd made the right decision. And right now, I start to feel restless because the circumstances of this situation seem too similar to what it was 7 years ago. The only difference is, this is going to be an even bigger jump.
I'm begging for an answer but like last time, there may not be one. As I sit in silence, my heart begins to sing this song that brings me comfort:
You changed my world
When you came to me
You drove a passion
In my soul down deep
Lord to follow you in everything
I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that you're not there
Cos I know that me without you is a lie
I don't want to walk that road
Be a million miles from home
Cos my heart needs to be where you are
So I don't want to go
So come whatever
I'll stick with you
I'll walk, you'll lead me
Call me crazy or a fool
For forever
I'll promise you that
I don't want to go somewhere
If I know that you're not there
Cos I know that me without you is a lie
I don't want to walk that road
Be a million miles from home
Cos my heart needs to be where you are
So I don't want to go
Without your touch
Without your love
Filling me like an ocean
For your grace is enough
Enough for me
Never wanna go somewhere
If I know you're not there...
