It's been over two years since my last post and I can't think why. It is not the lack of things to give thanks for or the lack of excitement in my life. But even though I had much to say about my time in Marawi, I never penned a post.
Perhaps my mind has just been distracted or I haven't been sure of the direction that my life has taken. Since coming back to Singapore in 2011, life has been full of setbacks and disappointments, enough to make me want to give up on a daily basis. But suddenly, it's as though the clouds have been lifted and I look behind me and I see the Red Sea closing behind me. He has brought me on from the Red Sea place in my life and finally I can move toward the promised land.
What is the promised land? It's the calling that he set before me. It means that there is a lot more walking and circling to do before I get there and it may be another 40 years until I reach but I can say all the more with confidence that I will get there because he has brought me through one trial to the next.
For the last 13 years, I have tried to find ways to fulfil my calling in the best way I know how, often stopped by the circumstances that I thought would bring me forward. And yet, he has called me is faithful and he will never fail. To imagine that I would be able to find a job that could fall in line with what I want to do is more than I could ask for.
Indeed I always remember that with great power comes great responsibility, and Jesus himself said 'To whom much has been given, much will be demanded.' I am glad to say that finally the day is coming when I can begin to repay just a tiny ounce of the abundant grace poured out upon me.
For years, I have seen those who have gone before me, soaring on wings like eagles, wishing that I could count myself like them. Or perhaps, another more apt analogy would be that of the ugly duckling, gazing at the beautiful swans that fly overhead, imagining my life to be like that. Definitely not to be glamorous but to be able to help others and change lives in a bigger way. After all these years of swimming in my little pond, I can see that reality of being able to fly come soon.I don't know when but soon and it's time for this ugly duckling to grow up.
'Two things I ask of you, Lord; do not refuse me before I die;
Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches,
But give me only my daily bread.
Otherwise I may have too much and disown you and say,
'Who is the Lord?'
Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God.'
As I have always said, To God Be the Glory.
Perhaps my mind has just been distracted or I haven't been sure of the direction that my life has taken. Since coming back to Singapore in 2011, life has been full of setbacks and disappointments, enough to make me want to give up on a daily basis. But suddenly, it's as though the clouds have been lifted and I look behind me and I see the Red Sea closing behind me. He has brought me on from the Red Sea place in my life and finally I can move toward the promised land.
What is the promised land? It's the calling that he set before me. It means that there is a lot more walking and circling to do before I get there and it may be another 40 years until I reach but I can say all the more with confidence that I will get there because he has brought me through one trial to the next.
For the last 13 years, I have tried to find ways to fulfil my calling in the best way I know how, often stopped by the circumstances that I thought would bring me forward. And yet, he has called me is faithful and he will never fail. To imagine that I would be able to find a job that could fall in line with what I want to do is more than I could ask for.
Indeed I always remember that with great power comes great responsibility, and Jesus himself said 'To whom much has been given, much will be demanded.' I am glad to say that finally the day is coming when I can begin to repay just a tiny ounce of the abundant grace poured out upon me.
For years, I have seen those who have gone before me, soaring on wings like eagles, wishing that I could count myself like them. Or perhaps, another more apt analogy would be that of the ugly duckling, gazing at the beautiful swans that fly overhead, imagining my life to be like that. Definitely not to be glamorous but to be able to help others and change lives in a bigger way. After all these years of swimming in my little pond, I can see that reality of being able to fly come soon.I don't know when but soon and it's time for this ugly duckling to grow up.
'Two things I ask of you, Lord; do not refuse me before I die;
Keep falsehood and lies far from me; give me neither poverty nor riches,
But give me only my daily bread.
Otherwise I may have too much and disown you and say,
'Who is the Lord?'
Or I may become poor and steal, and so dishonor the name of my God.'
As I have always said, To God Be the Glory.
