Life has been moving so quickly that it had just dawned on me that I hadn't written a post for such a long time. Just finished another set of night shifts, late shifts and the lot.. Thank goodness for swaps which have given me some time to breathe or finally sit down to think about my audit.
There are days like today where I spend my free time mulling over things that have happened in the days gone by. Questionable decisions, mistakes made, lives lost. Indeed, I am beginning to see with my own eyes that no matter how hard you try, you will lose lives. Sometimes it doesn't matter how early you intervene or when you get that right decision in, some things just happen the way they're meant to. I have Jesus, the great Comforter on my side, but I know the loss will never be as dear to me as to the patient's family and I can but whisper a prayer that they should find the same comfort that I have in him.
But each and every day, God pours out more grace for me. I have needed much more than I did when I was a medical student, now that much responsibility rests on my shoulders. Yet I have never been in want and each day, I experience a full measure of his abundant grace. In every procedure I undertake, in every patient I manage and every person I speak to.
Indeed, the Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want.
