I've been so busy recently that I've completely forgotten about my blog. In fact, I've not even had time to reflect on 2009 or my goals for 2010. Now that my body clock has been turned upside down from being on night shifts, I find myself with nothing to do at 5am on a Sunday morning. In the space of these 2 months, I find that I should have accumulated a great amount of thoughts which I could put into my blog, but my mind is as quiet as the world outside.
Having been run off my feet recently, I've allowed myself to slip away from God, spending so little time in prayer and meditation. But the looser my hold, the tighter his becomes. I may have slackened, but God knows my weakness and he's stayed close by my side. This past week of night shifts has been a great experience but also a time of testing and I have never been more grateful for the wisdom and the strength he has given me. If he could make the iron float on water, he can do anything.
Well, what of 2010 then? I'm still looking forward to the days ahead, although still praying for direction. I love it here in Dundee and quite resolved to stay here, though there seems to be a quiet push now and then beckoning me home. I am not sure if it will fade into the background or grow stronger but only time will tell. God always throws surprises in our way and 2010 has crept up on me so slowly that I'm not sure what to ask or hope for. But I realise also that I have so often limited God by my prayers or rather, my wishlist. So if I have one goal this year, it's to commit it to the Lord, just because he made the iron float.
