Ever get the feeling that you're not as resilient as you thought you were? Well, I did. I thought I could push on easily with my life as I always do and not let emotions get in the way. But all you need is one little crack in the wall for the dam to burst. Yesterday was my 22nd birthday and to be honest, I thought that it didn't really bother me anymore that I was all alone in Stirling, away from my friends. What's one birthday and really, you just have to get on with your life don't you?
I started the day in theatre and although it wasn't an eventful day, it wasn't bad. As long as I didn't try to remember that it was my birthday, things were fine. But the day before, I read my sister's blog and seeing pictures of my family in Disneyland without me made me miss them more, naturally compounded by the fact that I was all alone in Stirling. Then of course, by the afternoon, I'd got texts from people saying 'Happy Birthday'. I loved it of course but then it makes it harder to forget. With little persuasion, I bolted back to Dundee for the night and went for dinner with Janet. And I had such a great time because she put so much effort in trying to make me smile after that dismal day. When I returned home, I found letters in my mailbox from my family in the Philippines and tears just flooded my eyes. I was so touched by all the warm greetings I'd received from so far away.
Maybe a birthday is just a birthday after all, but it's the people that I have been blessed with that make it special. It's not about the parties, the cake or the presents, it's about having even just one person who would do anything to make you smile. Guess I'm not as much of a loner as I'd thought, but the love I have been given has built me up and I'm stronger than I was now.
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